In John 12:24, Jesus says, "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds." Each of us is called to give our lives in service to God with the knowledge that every act of service, every sacrifice, is a seed that can bear much fruit.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Rain, Rain and more Rain
Today, we had a road vehicle accident arrive at the emergency room with nearly 60 injuries - most likely due to the slippery roads and poor visibility. Please pray for those affected!
In the morning doctors' meeting, we heard how the entire hospital staff worked together with great commitment and compassion to triage and care for all of the injured from the accident. Even the custodial and security staff helped by handing out blankets and comforting injured and scared children separated from their parents. This is truly a wonderful hospital to work for!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Reflections at Half-way Point
What do I like most about Nepal?
The people, the culture, the food, the natural beauty. Nepali people are extremely friendly, hospitable and gracious. The women dress in the most colorful saris and khurtas, so walking down the street is a feast for the eyes! Then, no matter where I walk, children run after me shouting “Namaste! How are you? What is your name? Where you from?” Nepali culture is rich in little niceties – greeting people on the street with a slight bow and hands clasped together, always asking about friends and family, offering tea to visitors. Nepalis also love to share their food, no matter how humble. In fact, I have been surprised several times when one of the Nepali interns invites me to try a bite of whatever he or she is eating at tea, right off their plate (if my brothers-in-law are reading this, take note!). I know we do these things too, but it seems more significant when you are a stranger in a foreign land to be the recipient of these small blessings.
Nepali food is amazing – a blend of Indian and Chinese really. I already described some of it in a previous entry. At about 10:00 each morning, after morning rounds, the interns and doctors head to the hospital canteen for chiyaa (tea). The chiya is made with milk, spices and sugar, much like what we call chai back home. For Nepalis, this is their breakfast, and they eat any of a number of tasty treats with tea:
- samosas - fried, triangular shaped “hot pockets” filled with spicy potatoes and veggies
- parartha - a cross between a tortilla and a pancake, sometimes filled with spicy potato
- chole - something like a spicy chick pea stew
- aalu achar - potatoes with tangy cucumbers
- pakota - vegetable fritters
- and momos - steamed dumplings filled with meat or veggies
And the scenery – well, Tansen is absolutely beautiful. The hospital complex is up on hill overlooking a valley planted with rice paddies – very green and lush this time of the year. In the morning, the valley is usually filled with mist or clouds. So I look out my window and see the green hills around a carpet of white - wow! Behind the green hills around Tansen, on a clear day, you can sometimes see the majestic, jagged, snow-capped peaks of the Himalayas. We are too far west to see Mount Everest, but some of the western peaks are nearly as tall. I’m told that any day now the weather will clear up and we will see the peaks every day. Can’t wait! I have enjoyed exploring the area on short and long walks. There are many trails and paths that lead to incredible vistas, forested hills and beautiful flowers.
What do I miss most from home? Not much really - Diet Coke, friends and family.
What are the biggest challenges?
Apart from the challenges I described in my previous post dealing with patients dying, I guess the biggest challenges are simply physical inconveniences – heat and humidity, travel and critters. Surprisingly, at 4000 feet above sea level, the weather has been much like Houston. The humidity plus strong sun light make for a rather uncomfortable stickiness most of the time. Fortunately, it does cool down at night, and I'm told that the cooler weather will arrive any day now.
Travel is always an adventure, as in any developing country. Buses only take off when they are over-full with people on the roof, in the aisle and hanging out the door. And they stop every two seconds to let someone on or off. The winding mountain roads are narrow with minimal shoulders, so passing other vehicles is frightening whether you are on the side looking straight down the steep cliff, or the side where your bus comes withing millimeters of the bus going hte other direction.
What am I learning?
That is the most difficult question of all. I am not sure I can truly answer it now – it may take some time after I get back to Houston to discover the ways God has used my time and experiences here. I suppose I am learning about myself mainly. Am I willing and able to live and serve in a place like this? Could I ignore the inconveniences and discomforts for long-term? Would I be able to learn a new language and develop relationships with people from an entirely different culture? Would I be able to sustain my relationship with God? Would I find people to pray with and be accountable to?
Sunday, October 4, 2009
My Patients and My Patience
Sisir is a 5-year-old boy who presented with a huge lump under his right jaw. It looked like mumps, but mumps is generally on both sides of the face. He had a low-grade fever and tenderness in the area. It could have been an enlarged lymph node or a developing abscess. The lump measured 7 x 5 cm on admission, but quickly shrunk to less than 2 x 2 with IV antibiotics. He was very happy to be able to go home for Dasai! Sisir’s dad spoke a little English, which made my daily interview and exam much easier. And I heard Sisir counting to ten in English on one occasion, so I entertained him by trying to count to ten in Nepali.
Bikram is a 3-year-old boy who came in with 15 days of fever, decreased appetite, and general malaise. He had a huge liver and spleen and was diagnosed with typhoid or enteric fever (caused by Salmonella typhi – not the same Salmonella that causes food poisoning, but related). His mother was beside herself because day after day, Bikram kept spiking really high fevers and not eating well. One day she was in tears with worry and asking why he wasn’t getting better. Typhoid is like that – it can go on for days or weeks, even with antibiotics. I told her in very bad Nepali that I was praying for her – no idea if she understood or not – and asked the pastoral care team to visit and pray with her (I don’t know how it was received or what effect it had). However, the next day, mom was all smiles and reported that Bikram was better, the fever was much less, and he was eating well. They went home the next day, very grateful for a good recovery. I hope that somehow they experienced the love and healing of God during their short stay here.
Other stories are not so happy. I have seen so many children die the past four weeks – of meningitis, overwhelming infection, and respiratory failure. This week, I was taking care of a preemie born at 31 weeks (about two months early) weighing 1700 grams (normal 3000-3500). He was jaundiced and had to be placed under a special lamp. And he had a heart murmur from a patent ductus arteriosus (a shunt between the aorta, which pumps blood to the body, and the pulmonary artery, that channels blood to the lungs to pick up oxygen). A PDA is normal and useful before birth, and it usually closes within hours to days after birth. But this baby’s stayed open for some reason, causing his little heart to work harder, pumping more blood through his lungs, and decreasing flow to the rest of his body. Then, unfortunately, he developed necrotizing enterocolitis (NEC) – a condition in which portions of the intestine become injured and die, causing bleeding in the stool and even perforation of the intestines at times. Premature babies are at higher risk of NEC and are less likely to recover. This poor little guy just couldn’t overcome all of the problems he faced. He started having trouble breathing and finally just stopped. It was really hard to see him in the end, but it was even harder to see his mother’s reaction. She was beside herself with grief from the moment he began to go downhill, sobbing, wailing and even falling (or throwing herself) on the floor in agony.
Perhaps even more troubling to me, though, is the lack of emotion from parents. One night in the emergency room, a 2-week old baby was brought in blue and not breathing. We tried to resuscitate him unsuccessfully, and he was pronounced dead on arrival. The parents did not show any sign of distress. They simply signed the paperwork and took the body home. Some people say that parents here don’t get “attached” to their babies too soon because death in infancy and early childhood is so common. In fact, many babies are not given a name until some days or weeks after birth. It is hard for me to believe this is truly the case. Surely any woman who has carried a child in her womb for nine months and nursed him at her breast for even a short time would feel some grief if the child died. Perhaps those parents who don’t appear to grieve are simply hiding their pain deep inside until they can express it in private. I suppose doctors do the same thing. I certainly felt like weeping and wailing for that baby – so cute and chubby like all babies are, but lifeless – and yet I simply went on with my work.
Seeing children die is a challenge to my spiritual and emotional equilibrium. I am forced to grapple with the reality of death and disease while attempting to show empathy, compassion and love to my patients and their families. How do I feel their pain without succumbing to it? It is such a joy to see a child get well, to see a baby smile and coo or a 5-year-old running down the hall of the pediatric ward. But to see a child in pain, gasping for breath or delirious with fever defies everything that is good and right and beautiful. I am so thankful that we have medicines and procedures that make people better, and that God in his mercy has given us bodies that have remarkable healing capacity and the knowledge and ability to harness that capacity to speed or assist the healing process. Ultimately, however, life is not ours to give or take, and even as a doctor I can only wait on God and plead for his mercy. It’s humbling. But I have been meditating on his promise that one day he will wipe away every tear, and there will be no more sickness, no more death, no more pain or grief. In the meantime, I find I need to go to him every day to renew my capacity to love and show compassion.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Hindu Festival
I managed to have a good conversation with one of the pediatric interns before he left for the holiday. I asked him what Dasai meant to him, and he said it was pretty much just a cultural thing, a time to be with family and friends. He does not believe in any god and hasn’t since he was a small child. Although he will receive a tika from his parents and grandparents at Dasai, he does not plan to worship at the temple. I hope to have more conversations with others over the next few weeks, as it is a good way to start conversations about faith and beliefs.
Things at the hospital were really busy despite the holiday. Other area hospitals were closed, so the mission hospital here in Tansen received many referrals of critically ill/injured/pregnant patients. Half of the interns and residents were on holiday, so I actually felt useful helping on rounds and in the Emergency Room.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Bagnas
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This Saturday (Shanibaar in Nepali), I walked to a house church in Bagnas, a village about one hour’s walk from Tansen. The church was started when Meena, a young lady who cares for one of the missionary children, became a Christian. She heard the gospel from the missionaries she worked for and eventually gave her life to Jesus. Her family wasn’t happy with her at first, but soon they also converted. The family faced ostracism from the community for a time, but many others have now become Christians and others are at least accepting of their new faith. The small church (about 30-40 people) now meets in their house. Pastors from Tansen take turns preaching on Sundays.
The service was simple but really beautiful. The music was simple – a guitar and tambourine. Then they had a great time of prayer, with people sharing prayer requests and others praying for them. I was moved by their passion and love for the Lord. I wish I could learn each of their stories, as I am sure they all have an amazing testimony to how they heard and responded to the gospel and what it has meant to be a Christian in Nepal. There were lots of children present, and I just kept thinking how awesome it is to see the next generation of Nepalis growing up in Christ. The sermon was in Nepali, so I can’t really say much about it. With my Nepali lessons, I can pick out every fifth or sixth word, but not enough to put it all together. Still it was cool to listen and watch. I am going to try to find some time to study my Nepali/English song book and learn the words for Lord, Jesus, prayer, praise, salvation, cross, gospel, etc. I might even try to get my Nepali teacher to go over some Christian terms with me. He’s not a Christian, so it could lead to a good opportunity to share the gospel with him.
After the service, Meena and her family invited us for a “snack” in their house upstairs from the church. It was so-o-o-o-o-o-o-oooooo delicious (mito). They served some kind of roasted chick peas that were really nicely seasoned, fresh cucumber slices from their garden, fried potatoes, and beaten rice. I don’t know how the rice is made, and I’ve never eaten anything like it – it’s toasted, crunchy and yummy. It was so humbling to receive such warm hospitality from people I don’t even know!
The walk to Bagnas follows the ridge between Tansen and the highest point of the area where there is a radio tower (see photo). Compared to my last walk (death march, really), this was qu
My traveling companions were two Australians – Graham and Elaine – and an English medical student, Kat. Graham is a surgeon, and Elaine (his wife) is a nurse. They retired with the specific goal of spending several months a year doing medical missionary work. Now they spend three months a year in Nepal and two to three months elsewhere (Africa, Papua New Guinea). They’ve been to Nepal several times already and know many people, including Meena and her family. Kat is finishing her last year of medical school and leaves Tansen this week. She is really lovely, and I’ve enjoyed getting to know her.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Nepali Hospitality
Kasi Ram lives in a house that was his grandfather’s grandfather’s. It is a two or three story structure with the kitchen and family room on the second floor. We sat on the floor to eat dinner, which is the traditional way, I think. Dinner was quite a feast. For those who are not familiar with Nepali food (similar to Indian food mostly), I will describe the dishes in detail.
After I had stuffed myself on the delicious dinner, Nirmala served dessert – yogurt with banana and pomengranate. I didn’t think Nepalis ate dessert, but apparently I was wrong. I managed to finish off my plate (it was really good) and a cup of chiya (spiced milk tea).
After dinner, the family sung a song From the Rising of the Sun. Of course they sung in Nepali, but I managed to make out a few words. Then they asked me to read a passage from the Bible. I read from John 15 in English and Kasi Ram then read in Nepali. I recognized the word fruit (phalphul) as he read, so I felt like I was following along! Then he asked me to pray for his family and he closed in prayer. It was really awesome to worship with this wonderful Christian family. I thank God for them and for their faith. Please pray for them if you think about it. I think it would really encourage them to know that other people in my country are praying for them and for their small church.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Lumbini - Birthplace of Buddha
Lumbini is located in the Terai, a swampy lowland area in the South of Nepal, along the Indian border. It lies south and west from Tansen, about 60 to 75 km. The trip there in jeep (hired driver) took less than three hours. From Tansen to Butwal (a large town in the Terai and a hub for India-Nepal transit and trade) involves a steep descent from about 4,000 feet to sea level. The roads are narrow, and drivers have to contend with precipitous drop-offs with no shoulder, two-way vehicle traffic careening around turns without regard for the non-existent "lanes," not to mention cows, goats, and people on motorcycles, bicycles, and foot. (Accidents are all too common.) During the monsoon season, landslides are quite common, sometimes closing the road for days or weeks. Fortunately, we are at the end of monsoon season, so we made it down with no real problems.
The heat and humidity hit one almost immediately upon descending onto the Terai plains. The first real town encountered is Butwal. It's main avenue is lined with rickshaws, the most popular form of transportation in this part of the country. (Probably not as popular in Tansen due to the steep hills.) From Butwal, we traveled to Bhairahawa, which is a major border crossing between India and Nepal, though not much to see. Then the road turns west to Lumbini or east toward the Royal Chitwan National Park (which I hope to see in a few weeks).
Lumbini is a mere watering hole - blink and you'll miss it. The one "main street" (see album below) is about a block long with a scattering of guest houses, restaurants and shops. There were very few foreign tourists around, but lots of Indian and Nepali-looking visitors. The entrance to the World Heritage Site is right off the main road. The whole park is something of a nature sanctuary and garden, with lots of trees, grasses, ponds and marshes throughout. There is a central canal and avenue that separates the Eastern and Western monastic zones (representing different branches of Buddhism), where temples and monastaries in various stages of completion have been built by many of the nations with significant Buddhist populations. The monasteries and temples are fairly spread out throughout the park area, and most visitors get around by rickshaw or bicycle. We opted for rickshaws, which is a first for me. It was really difficult to see the poor driver sweating and straining to bear us over long stretches of gravel and/or muddy roads. But when in Rome, I guess....
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Arriving on Friday evening at about 4:30 PM, we promptly secured rooms for the night in one of the local guest houses. Having Bim (a Nepali doctor) with us was a real help, as he was able to negotiate the price and other vital arrangements for us (like providing towels, turning on the ceiling fans). Once settled, we walked to the park and toured the Maya Devi Temple, which marks the actual, exact (supposedly) birthplace of Buddha. The temple encloses some original brick structures (ruins) dating back to as early as 300 B.C. (Buddha was born in the 5th or 6th century B.C.), as well as a marker stone in the exact location where Queen Maya (Buddha's mother) gave birth. Outside the temple is the sacred pond, where Buddha's mother bathed just before giving birth, and the Asokan pillar, erected by Emperor Asoka, and one of the earliest evidences that Lumbini was believed to be the birthplace of Buddha. Outside the temple, Buddhist monks lead meditation and worship. And Buddhist chants are played over a speaker system within the temple itself. I have to say that I felt it to be a little eerie and dark.
After this initial bit of site-seeing, we returned to "town" for dinner, where we were the only guests in the 3 Foxes restaurant. The food was fantastic, but portions were pretty small, so we kept ordering more courses and ended up staying for about three hours! We returned for breakfast - banana honey pancake - yum! In between, I spent perhaps the hottest night of my life. Heat was radiating from the roof, the floor, the mattress - even the ceiling fan couldn't do much more than stir the hot air around. Things finally cooled off by early morning, but even then, a cold shower only took away the stickiness for about a minute. We all had to drink liters of water to keep up with the losses to sweat! Nevertheless, we passed an enjoyable morning riding in rickshaws from temple to temple. After 6 or 7, and three hours of sun beating down, we were ready to leave. Overall, it was worth seeing, but I would recommend going in the winter!
Of course the trip wasn't finished until it was finished. That is, the return journey was somewhat of an adventure - or should I say ordeal? Now, I had plenty of long, hot bus rides in Bolivia, but it has been a while since I've had to travel that way, and I must say I don't miss it. Rather than pay 3000 Nepali rupees (about $40) for a private jeep back, we decided to travel the Nepali way - by public bus. It took three buses to get back, and a total of six hours. That includes waiting for the buses to fill up, because there are no scheduled departure times here - the bus leaves when as many passengers, bags, bundles, etc. are crammed in/on/under and around the bus as possible. Actually, the first leg wasn't too bad - 22 km in an hour, with several stops to drop off and pick up and wait along the way. Once reaching Bhairahawa, we didn't have to wait long. We were offered roof-top seats on a bus leaving immediately. Now, normally I wouldn't suggest riding on the roof of a bus. It's dangerous of course. But it was a short ride (20 km) and relatively straight and flat. So we decided to take the chance. It was actually a fairly pleasant ride - much more of a breeze than we would get inside the bus (which was stuffed to the gills). Children waved at the bideshi (foreigners) tourists along the way; we had to duck a few low-hanging branches; and we almost got rained on. But we arrived in Butwal safely and were the first to board the next bus for Tansen. And we waited. And waited. And finally, the bus left the bus depot and we were on our way - or so we thought. Then we stopped along the main avenue and baked in the hot sun while people got on and off, left bags in the aisle, loaded cargo on the roof...I think we were there for an hour with no room to move and no breeze. Ugh. Finally on our way, the loaded bus went about 5 km an hour up the hills to Tansen (not fast enough to get motion sickness from the twisty-turny road), stopping every 10 or 15 minutes at little villages along the way to load or unload passengers and cargo. By the way, there are really no bathroom breaks on these trips (unless you want to ask the driver to pull over and go in the grass by the side of the road with a busful of people watching), so fortunately I was able to sweat out any fluid I managed to take on the way. It took three hours to get to Tansen, and by that time I was ready for a cold shower!!! I was so glad to get back to cool mountain air. And I definitely appreciate the hardship my patients face getting to the hospital when they are sick or in pain.
So, God is good. I am thankful for safe travel, health and the opportunity to see a little more of the landscape, culture and religion of this beautiful country.

